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sigh, my patience has been wearing thin lately. snapped at my mum this afternoon ): I feel bad cause like it's not her fault. very annoyed at some of my group members sia seriously. then everything I dunno I very stress sia. which is why the moment someone offends me nowadays my face will turn totally black:/
I don't like how life is now ):
well at least I'm still managing unlike jc. where I was being pulled along the whole way.
I miss jc though. I miss the times when friends are really friends. I don't like how in poly everyone is so.. fake. and so much for believing I won't get backstabbed. seems like it only applies to engineering. why is business so competitive. to the point that people have to do this to each other.
singapore, what are you doing to the teenagers nowadays. what will our future turn out to be like? I don't want to be unable to trust people in the future ): that would be really sad.
anyway I'm like addicted to twitter now somehow. I use it like my sms like that hahaha. but I spam so much, I feel bad:/
facebook is like there for friends who are not close sia. and I want someone to talk to me, like initiate. I like to talk to him. at this rate I might actually change the person I like hahaha. I'm so fickle-minded.
at least that shows I'm really female.
sometimes I doubt my gender hahaha.
Monday, May 23, 2011
helloz! haven't had time to post:/
well, nothing much is up, just that I'm suddenly into kpop again. like I was bored, randomly went to update myself and got addicted once again xD
anywayz, class politics. don't like it, but there's nothing much I can do ):
and the reason I'm up so late is cause like it's e-learning week this week^^ so I get to wake up later:D technically I'm also depriving myself of sleep, but oh wells, who cares.
gotta wake up in like 4 and a half hours time ):
okayz, shall sleep after one more video:D
Friday, May 13, 2011
bloggggggg.
okay, it's been only like 3 or 4 weeks idk and so many things have happened. whyyyyy. it's good that some things happened but some should have never, sighhhhh.
and I feel like everything is my fault. no matter what.
so anyway, I'm quitting archery. hahaha it's not cause my attention span very short kkkk. it's just that I really cannot handle the commitment:/ and other random factors. I was really pondering about it for a VERY VERY long time. like almost everyday since like 2 weeks ago?
and hahaha I'm posting at this hour cause I accidentally fell asleep and woke up like an hour ago. did some of my work and ate. guess I'll go to sleep after this post.
and well, with my relationship problems. they just seem to keep piling uppppp, higher and higher, good job to everyone. everyone should deserve and osacar award for the way they are behaving now. and it's not like I can say this to their face, sian. and with someone, everything is just wrong man. Idk why this is happening to us, but it's just wrong. and the fact that we only do it when there's no one we know around, that's even more wrong. it feels like I have some super huge secret now. it's not like I can't tell ppl, it's the thing about ppl getting the wrong idea:/
poly life is so hectic. well at least it's fun and easier to pass through. please don't ever make me regret leaving jc for poly.
anyway, B1A4 has a cute guy with small eyes <3 hahaha I seem to really like small eyes. I love eye candies, they just make my day so awesome(: everytime I'm down I think of my eye candies. superficial much hahaha.
my crush has small eyes too(: he was an eye candy before I knew him:P
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
HIHIHIHIHIHI.
I realised I haven't blogged in a super long time. counting that I used to blog everyday.
well, atm I'm like super tired la. but I'm still trying to keep myself awake.
for what reason I'm doing this? there's no reason actually. it's just weird to go to bed so early:/
actually I should sleep soon la. I haven't had proper rest for more than one week. that's just.. wrong. and in less than 12hours time I have to be in school ):
hmm, basically my last week has been really hectic. one hell of a mess. I went to school and then when the weekends came I thought I could finally rest. but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, I had archery ): although it cut into my precious rest time, I don't regret going(: now I have a lot of awesome friends. that I don't get to see much cause like they are all at the engineering area ):
oh well. I look forward to fri(: I hope I'll get my rest this week. and archery officially starts on fri. oh dear, my scholarship interview is on fri too. and manfred's gig is on fri too. LOL. I have so many things to do on fri. pressure much.
and my life has basically been hectic cause like everyone has love problems lol. yet for some unknown reason, I seem to be the one getting all the confessions. and then when things get out of hand, all the blame is put on me. like wow thanks I feel so great la.
but actually that's solved already. not like I'm out of the picture. I'm still stuck in it, which I kinda hate but at the same time I want to be there too. sigh, I shouldn't be so contradictory.
the thing is, I don't mind helping ppl but wth I want to concentrate on my own one too can. while everyone else's is like going somewhere, I feel like mine is going nowhere and even more I feel like it's disappearing. sian diao. I'm annoyed but at the same time I don't give a heck.
well today I'm actually in a bad mood. cause I'm tired and somebody was blaming me for sth I didn't do. I swore for the first time in a long time, and I meant it.
I don't wanna think about it anymore la.
my head's killing me, I'm just gonna go sleep now.