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so I haven't blogged in awhile. like no time ah wth. now that school's pretty much going to start, I'm going to be very busy ):
well, some updates on my life..
I've decided to join archery. a very random decision, but I like it. it's not as difficult as I thought, so yeah(: it's a very fun sport even though it doesn't look that way. you just have to make it fun yourself.
and well, made a number of friends there. who are all my age! yes, I like ppl my age. talking to 93's are easier. Idk why, but it just seems like the case, heh.
I've met my class too, majority are like one year younger. but I'll try to get along with them nonetheless. and uh, I've forgotten most of their names already. I'm really bad with names man. and there's just too many to rmb. why does poly have so many ppl ): that gives me a headache with names.
my class is pretty nice. but I can say they're like A LOT, like HELL LOT, better than my orientation group. my group was just like dao all the way, yay. form our own cliques, yay. my class is like full of crazy and high ppl (Y) and the usual few emo ppl.
life's pretty nice atm, but I'm sure it'll turn into sth else soon. lessons are going to start ): I'm gonna start reading my notes soon, by today I gotta read them. to get a scholarship, I guess I have to change my lifestyle of being lazy. studying, here I come.
I hope BMGT and MAEC will be nice to me and allow me to understand them easily(:
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
orientation yesterday was lousier than I imagined it to be. I practically WTH-ed throughout it. basically it was a boring day, which got me really mad, cause it wasn't well organised and all. I think the jc system is still better. I'm starting to have my doubts about not retaining. sigh, did I make the wrong choice ):
anyway, tj ppl are a lot easier to talk to than np ppl. or maybe it's a jc poly thing. they have so much lingo that I never ever understand. don't really want to understand, so I gave up trying. jc ppl I miss you all.
my og is dead. seriously. and it's so freaking small, or tiny. 13 ppl sia wth. LAME SMALL. then the ppl all not high one, wtshit. other groups like million times more high. I'm deciding whether I should go to school damn high/crazy today, or I should give up entirely and be an attitude kid.
np's full of attitude kids, seriously. even the SCs sia wth. np's system so lousy sia how they choose one.
on a side note, I need to find another way to commute to school. 74's not going to make it. too crowded, so many ppl, can't even get on the bus ): WTH AHHHHHH!
I'm turning my sorrows into hatred, lmao.
one of my long nails broke today. I couldn't bear to throw it, but decided to throw it anyway ):
I wish someone would give me a crash course on how to talk to poly ppl. I going to cmi already. and everyone is seriously like from a neighbourhood school. I haven't talked to anyone who's around cedar standard omg. I'm going to die.
well anyway, I saw amirah today(: she's in archery. didn't see anyone else, but I think I saw 4N's monitor. I forgot what her name is LOL. and I saw samantha, my junior. then no more already, I think. wanted to see hanis and livia but I think like too many ppl already, chances of meeting so low lol.
I'm having trouble sleeping actually. I'm dreading tmr but also looking forward to it. like tmr is games! and I intend to exercise, seriously. but I scared my group all like heck care. like that would be like super boring:/
AND YESTERDAY I EXERCISED. in a sense. was like sprinting a number of times so that I could catch my bus. having to wait would be a pain so I just decided to run. and it's always fine running in shoes, no matter what shoes. as long as they're shoes. slippers fail, flats fail, scandals fail. I don't even need to mention heels.
well, this has been a long post. I hope today will be a better day.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
finished arad senki!(: omgosh, that was a nice watch! since I felt like I haven't watched a super nice action anime in a very long time~ but anyway episodes 19-26 were really satisfying!:D and as usual I got a nostalgic feeling when it ended. it's like I always want more~ it's ambiguous as to whether there will be a next season. but I think most likely won't have ):
addicted to one part of the first op. the chorus tune is so nice. I just like it and I don't even know why! but it just gives me such a nice feel:DD
anyway, I influenced my sister to watch dream high lmao. she's super addicted. I can tell since she's still awake at this hour for the sake of watching it. and I keep wanting to tell her spoilers, heh heh.
and I didn't go out yesterday -_- didn't buy the shirts, didn't go for supper. sigh, I'm feeling really anxious now since I didn't get the shirts. what am I gonna wear to school omg. and I feel bad, since I was the one who cancelled supper.
the fact that school starts tmr feels so.. unreal.
like I don't feel any anxiety and all. not nervous and all. until just. okay, I'm panicking at this moment. I can feel my heartbeat becoming really fast. and omg, I'm totally gonna have trouble sleeping the night before school starts. and I'm gonna end up going to school half asleep. like always.
I'm kinda scared now ):
but well anyway, I need to sleep soon. my body's clock is so not adjusted for school, sigh ):
Saturday, April 16, 2011
omgosh! totally hooked to arad senki now! the main storyline has finally kicked in!:D but so slow lol, it only kicked in in episode 19 onwards. and it only has 26 episodes -_-
it's starting to become quite good now:D which makes me can't stop watching. and all the random episodes from before, aren't totally random episodes. they were actually introducing ppl who are impt in the later episodes!:O and there was a little something in each episode that developed the story a little further(: not bad! that's a creative move.
OMG WTH I DON'T KNOW WHAT I PRESSED WHICH MADE IT DELETE A LOT OF STUFF I JUST TYPED. and I don't rmb what I deleted. lmao.
oh wells, shall type what I'm thinking of atm. I probably need to go out today. to buy the shirts. I hope I can finally buy them, if not it's gonna be a pain in the neck to go shopping again. and at night I'm having supper with a pig. hahaha, it's been long since I've met her(:
I feel like it's been long since I met a lot of ppl. nowadays I only still talk to a handful of ppl. that's quite sad. but it's hard to do anything about it since they're all busy and I don't want to disturb them. but oh wells, I probably won't be thinking about them as often anymore once school starts since all the distractions from there will be "entertaining" me.
lol, I hope school doesn't turn out like how I imagine it to be. I just want to peacefully finish it. don't want any drama and all.
I've had enough drama the past year. too much than anyone should have.
I just want to live in peace from now on~ no one disturbing me, no one making trouble, no one pulling me into stuff.
I want to finish arad senki but I guess I can't, since I need to sleep soon:/ well, at least that will be one thing to look forward to when I wake up later.
I'M SO LAZY. I DON'T WANNA GO SHOPPING ):
anyway, a lot of kpop groups have made their comeback lately. now I can stop obsessively listening to 0330. LOL.
big bang's stupid liar is so cute, the lyrics and all(: love song just makes my heart melt, kinda <3 especially GD's voice. I was like smiling while watching the live version. so retarded.
and I keep rewatching 4minute's heart to heart cause the mv is so funny! and the guy in the mv is from cnblue(: he gave me a shock cause he didn't style his hair so he totally looked like a girl in the beginning:O and I think heart to heart sounds nicer than mirror mirror. mirror mirror sounds a little weird:/ like when the chorus comes in.
oh, I like rainbow's to me also. it's super catchy! and I actually kinda like how the car turned out in the end. so cool sia, rainbow car. since the guy doesn't want it, I don't mind having it heh heh^^
sigh, it's sad that until now I still can't really get used to my laptop's keyboard ): maybe I need to cut my nails. shall cut once lessons start(: orientation's next week! for 4 days(: hope it'll be fun. and I realise even though I have a class timetable, I don't know my class o.o do I even have one? hmm...
Friday, April 15, 2011
OMG HOW CAN THEY DO THIS TO ME! THEY CHANGED MY TIMETABLE. THIS IS DEPRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSING.
I have class on wed ): for lame stuff. and at year 1 we're kinda forced to do sports. LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAME. hahaha, but I'll do it anyway.
MY NAIL IS BREAKING OMG WTSHIT. IT'S BREAKING AFTER 5 MONTHS. THAT'S TELLING ME THE FACT THAT SCHOOL STARTING IS A BAD THING, A BAD BAD THING.
I'M ON CAPS LOCK. I REALISED I'M ROUGHLY SPAMMING IN CAPS SO YEAH.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, I DON'T WANT SCHOOL )))))))):
AND I TRIED TO BUY MAROON/DARK RED SHIRTS TODAY BUT VERY HARD TO FIND AHHHHHHH.
I ENDED UP BUYING SCHOES, SHORTS, PANTS AND ONE RED SHIRT. SIAN AH. ULTIMATE SIAN. YESTERDAY WAS A SUAY DAY. APRIL 14. I'LL HATE THIS DAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
OKAY, GONNA GO SLEEP NOW. BUT I NEED TO CALM DOWN FIRST.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
I'm in a really weird mood. I feel this need to cry. not the wailing kind, but the soft sad crying. I don't know why I want to cry, I can't express the way I feel, but I'm not really sad. I'm not touched. but tears keep welling up in my eyes and then they fade.
I've never felt like this before. have I reached a new understanding of the human heart? I don't know. I can't think.
is life just an illusion? is the world an illusion? what is real?
I don't know, I don't.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
wah, I realise I've been posting like mad lately lol.
I'll probably cut down soon since school's gonna start and time's gonna start passing me by again.
currently watch arad senki. it's super retarded. every episode has it's dose of action and comedy, but it's like random episodes. they don't really focus on the main storyline. but I guess since it's produced by gonzo, there's nothing great about it. gonzo just fails in many ways. I'm looking for sth light to watch so yeah.
anyway, I attempted to apply for scholarship today but ended up freaking out. so my mum told me to get my dad to help me. good call.
and well, I'm determined to sleep a lot earlier today so my body clock can adjust back. before I sleep I'll probably read a book(:
I just hope the book doesn't stink.
I love the smell of new books though <3
so yeah, I'll probably shut down once I'm done blogging.
hmm, I need to get maroon shirts and shorts and shoes. by this week. I wonder when's a good time to get them. I'm a little lazy but I guess I gotta do what I gotta do. I should probably settle it before the weekend where there will be a huge crowd. which means, either today, tomorrow or friday.
should I go today? or tomorrow? friday sounds a little last min.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
gehh, just awhile ago I was in a hell lot of pain. stomachache ): but I'm feeling a lot better now after going to the toilet. such an untimely arrival. I wanted to go to sleep too. but I'm now stuck waiting for csi, so I decided to blog.
well, I managed to go to the library. borrowed like 5 books. I wonder if I'll even read them lol.
anyway, I saw my junior talking about her timetable on fb, and she's from np too, so I kinda guessed that the timetable should be out and decided to check. I have no idea what those classes are, but anyway, my timetable looks pretty nice:D a lot nicer than jc ever was.
according to my timetable, I have wed off:DD and on 2 days I only have half day. the other 2 days are 7 hours long but still awesome! 7hours is the longest!:DD plus after every long day I kinda have a break. omg my timetable is just the ultimate awesome. I just hope they don't make changes to it since it's still subject to changes. hahaha, when my timetable is confirmed I shall upload it on fb so that everyone will be jealous, heh. I feel evil, lol.
so that's my good news of the day(: I just hope I get awesome teachers. and uh, orientation will go smoothly and all. and my scholarship, geh. I'm afraid to not be able to get it ): it seems cca's quite impt and I kinda slacked my way through it ):
crossing my fingers.
Monday, April 11, 2011
now that I've finished yi tian tu long ji, I'm at a loss of what to do..
I wanted to watch another wuxia show, but then like no time ): I can tell since my senior has already msged me about orientation, geh.
want to go to the library but I feel like there's sth I need to do first. and now I need to find out what is it I need to do -_-
having egg tart for "breakfast".
egg tart ah egg tart, tell me what I should do.
finished itttttttttttttttt!
ahh, the last episode was a bit retarded. and I think it didn't end very properly. like got some things that they didn't wrap up well:/ but oh wells, I'm not a critic so I'm not gonna pick on the small details.
was a good watch though(: wuxia shows are the best:D
and I'm gonna go sleep at a really late hour again -_-
finished episode 39 of yi tian tu long ji.. one more ep to go. now that it's ending I feel kinda sad ): will miss it.
starting to feel sleepy again.
and as I watch time pass me by, I feel like I have so many things I want to do, yet I do not have the time to accomplish them.
I thought that after the earthquake struck japan, anime and manga would take a longer time to come out, but it's still coming out at the same pace. which just leaves me more and more things I need to catch up on. all the anime and manga. sigh, I definitely won't be able to read or watch them all before school starts :/
and I still want to go to the library to borrow books to read. all the more I won't have the time. sighhhh.
maybe it's time I started waking up earlier and sleeping less so I can get things done. at the rate I'm going now, it's going to be hard to adjust back to the school life. sighhhhh.
I feel like an old man, sighing about everything ):
okay, I'm quite determined to go to the library today, when I wake up. I just hope I don't become lazy again at the last moment.
4 more days till the release of my daily school life timetable ):
9 more days till my daily life is changed ):
this is painful.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
I feel like saying something to a particular friend, but if I say it he's just gonna get mad. and I really want to say it, so I'm gonna blog.
it's just that I don't see the point in him posting all those statuses on fb. like if you're angry or annoyed at yourself for being useless or whatever, obviously ppl are going to tell you to chill. and then, you get mad at them for saying that. like what's the point man. if you don't want ppl to interfere with you about these things, then don't put it on fb and nobody will know. that's why I don't understand what's going on in your head. is it your pride and all? that you study like crazy and in the end you don't get the results you want? I mean like, it's okay to think you're better than average, and working hard isn't wrong, but you gotta admit that there are plenty of ppl out there who are born with better brains than you are and they work equally hard too, just that they might not show it. they have their pride too. and to make yourself feel better you post stuff on fb so ppl tell you you're not as bad as you think you are. I pity you for the way you're behaving. like you have no backbone. but maybe you're just too stressed out. I can't blame you for that. I just want you to know that there are ppl who care for you, and if you just keep pushing them away, one day they're just gonna give up on you because they can't do it anymore.
okay I'm done ranting. he doesn't know I have a blog so he probably won't read this and it's better that way. I can only hope he tries to change himself for the better. it's kinda sad to see him walk down the road to self-destruction and not able to pull him out of it. and well, I don't think anybody can. he has to do it himself. and honestly, relationships aren't everything. I don't know why he has to put himself through all this heartbreak and all. if you break, you break. end of story. I know I sound heartless, but it's the truth. there's nothing more to it.
gehh. this is such a long post of ranting.
anyway, I hate blogwalkers. when I rmb my password for my tagboard thingy, I'm gonna block all the blogwalkers. they're so annoying. or maybe I should entirely make my blog private. but that's such a pain in the ass to do and I dunno how to do it lol.
blogging is becoming a habit. sigh, that's not good.
and my sister walked past me just now and went like 'omg you have a blog?!' slow much. I told her awhile ago, seems like she wasn't listening when I was talking lol.
well, now that I'm done ranting, I guess I'll go back to do my daily stuff and try not to look at my fb homepage for awhile. it's totally spammed by his statuses that's why I totally lost my cool and needed to rant. if I was thinking slightly illogically, I would have already commented on his statuses with all this crap. but that's just gonna kill our friendship and all. and it's not like saying all this will make him change, so yeah.
I can only hope you see your mistakes soon.
almost going to finish yi tian tu long ji!:DD another 6 episodes more to go I think(: I've come a long way~
anyway, totally didn't expect to still be awake at this hour. I aimed to sleep at 2plus sia. then I couldn't help it and decided to watch one more episode. and then after that I was going to level up in csi so I decided to wait till I did and then it took longer than I expected:/ and then, just when I thought I was finally done, I forgot to blog.
I feel bad if I don't update for too long since I've been updating it lately. not that anyone reads it. it's just that in the future when I want to know how I used to be at certain moments, I can always come here to read(:
and wells, I got a B for pw. surprisingly, a lot of my good friends (before jc) got B too. hahaha guess we really cmi for op. and the person I wanted to do really badly got a C. arghhhhhh. it just makes all the ppl who got B look bad ): I can't believe they counted her in for wr and all.
at least it doesn't matter to me. just went to know for fun. and congratulate my friends, who mostly got A!:D met a lot of ppl the day before:DD and my feet still hurt from the high heels ): shall not go anywhere for a while.
wanted to go to the library actually. had a random urge to go there. but I didn't know what to do if I went, so in the end I didn't go. until now I still have the urge, but what to do there? :O
I realise that I'm being random cause I'm really sleepy. like I slept at 11plus the day before. BIG BIG DIFF.
and the wind keeps blowing into my eyes ):
saw a number of teachers too. they're all big jokers hahaha. it's nice going back once in a while. I'm just scared of the security guards. but mr heng told me it's fine to just come back hahaha. totally heck care the security guards.
gehhh, nothing else to say, 'cept that school's starting soon. it's so depressing hearing the 'school' word. everyone asked me how's school and I was just like 'errrrrrrrrrrrr. school hasn't started. lol.'
on a side note, I DIDN'T GET A CERT >:( mr tan says I'm probably get one later on. but it'll look quite funny hahaha. an A level cert with only one subject, lol.
soooooooo,
5 more days to release of timetable.
8 more days to the start of school.
I need to download the softwares soon.
I think I haven't installed one only though.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
I feel that I'm becoming very no life again. for the millionth time lol.
anyway, I heard the pw results will be released on fri(: finally have a chance to go back to visit tj. I kinda miss the ppl there >.< I wonder what grade I'll get hahaha. I hope someone gets a U.
it's not like she has done anything to me, but hurt my friend and manage to continue cause her mother helped her. no seriously, she hasn't done me any wrong. but I sure hope she screws her life.
well, I'll probably get a B or C. not that it matters to me anymore since I'm out of the jc syllabus. I just want the cert so I can feel like I've actually achieved something last year. that I didn't just waste my whole life there. proof that I've actually done something.
so, I'm currently debating what to wear on fri. I would like to wear my uniform to go in, but my uniform has already been thrown away, or sold. I don't really know what they did to it but well, I just know I don't have it anymore.
it's a little sad how I don't have my jc uniform anymore but my secondary school uniform is still there. ahh ahh.
school's starting soon. in less than 2 weeks. I can't believe my 5 months just passed like that. I've been at home for almost half a year. might actually be difficult to get used to school life again :/
11 more days.
I think I should get a countdown timer for my blog. LOL.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
somehow I think kpop's becoming very lovesick. so many lovesick songs. but I like.
super addicted to 0330 >.< I wanted to cry when I saw the mv. so sad ): I want to brush dongho's hairrrrrrrrrrr.
anyway, 12 more days ):
what should I wear? sigh, I need to ask ppl for some advice.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
sigh, it's so early and I'm feeling sleepy. I think it's cause the show I'm watching isn't as nice as I thought it would be so it's boring me a little.
and there are some parts where I can't help it so I burst out into laughter. like it's so unbelievable. and the first time deng chao appeared, he was like tarzan omg. swinging from tree to tree. and his best friend has been a monkey, for FIVE YEARS. I admire the script writer for being so creative.
and lol he only started to appear in episode 11. slow much. the front part too many extra things already. at the rate it's going, it's either going to be a very long show, or it's going to be short cause they rushed the ending.
anyway the girl acting as zhou zhiruo like not even pretty omg. the young zhou zhiruo looks so much better -_- I think all the kids looked so much better LOL.
but actually the cast not very good looking sia. quite disappointing since it's like the 2009 version. I think the 2003 version had a better looking cast but the effects can't be compared.
geh, at this rate I don't know if I'll be able to finish watching it. either I'll run out of time or I won't be able to sit through it.
I DON'T WANT SCHOOL TO START!
13 more days ):
10 more days to the release of class timetable ):
DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPRESSING. sigh ):
and I just realised you can't see the name of the person who posts on my tagboard when the background is black. hahaha.
well, who cares anyway.
argh, I have no idea why I'm still awake at this hour. I should like totally be sleeping now.
watching yi tian tu long ji now. the 2009 version. I watched for the sake of an yi xuan and deng chao and until now NEITHER HAS APPEARED WTH! and I'm at episode 9! omg why is the front part so long -_-
on a side note, I think deng chao looks better with white hair than black. weird.
addicted to kpop for like the millionth time. hahaha. I can't get enough of all the new songs. I think kpop's getting better and better:D super like cnblue's intuition. they all look so badass <3
I like the new song from u-kiss too, 0330. but I realise everytime I watch them my eyes only focus on dongho hahaha. and he's younger than me omg.
but more than ever, I can't get over bigbang omg. totally addicted to all the songs in their mini album. especially cafe <3 and I didn't know that GD is the leader, till today. omgosh. GD <3
geh, I totally sound like I'm fan-girling omg. I'm NOT. I don't squeal. I just appreciate people to a larger extent(: hahaha. okay gonna go sleep now. I just hope I don't wake up in the evening -_-
Saturday, April 2, 2011
okay I just felt a random need to rant.
I totally don't understand some ppl. why do their lives revolve around other ppl? it's so dumb. like everything that matters is how many ppl like them, how many friends they have, how their friends don't like the same ppl they dislike. it's so immature seriously.
and I used to be like that. which depresses me :/
but at least I've outgrown that. some ppl should learn to grow up. come on, we're already almost legal. get a life, seriously.
sigh, it's saturday and I'm stuck at home.
wanted to stop by aj for a while. but my freaking toe is still injured. but it feels like it's better than it was yesterday, at least(:
I love this movie spree. hahaha. I can't believe I missed out on so many movies! so now's my chance to catch up:D
just finished race to witch mountain. it would have been nicer if I found it in HD, the effects weren't as nice since it was a little blurry. but hey, the guy's cute and the girl's kinda pretty so I'm not complaining(:
and who knew the rock could act! I think he's so much better acting in movies than wrestling. but maybe that's cause I can't appreciate wrestling:P
I don't want school to start >.<
I know I was just saying the total opposite like a while ago, but now that I've found something to do, I kinda don't want school to start. or at least, lemme finish my movie spree first! and after that, I kinda gotta catch up on my animes. I like haven't watched a lot of them in a very long time so I'm behind like about 50 episodes omg.
and there's more than one anime that I'm lagging behind. sigh, I hope I can finish all of them before school! and plus, I'm still playing my games and all. so many things to do, so little time ):
haha, screw neopets. the only reason I'm still playing is cause like I'm spending neopoints like mad. it's the thrill of spending so much "money" and no need to care about the consequences. although, I'm seriously running low now. which probably means I'm gonna quit neopets soon. good for me hahaha.
I'm debating if I should watch 17 again. it's like a super cliche chick flick. and some more got zac efron lol. don't really know if I can sit through the whole movie looking at him.
I should go watch the blockbusters first. totally. okay, 17 again, bottom of the list heh.
omg it's 3plus in the morning. need to go to sleep soon.
didn't get to watch the movies I wanted to watch ): maybe must wait a little longer so that clearer versions will be out. so I decided to start watching 2009 movies instead.
just finished he's just not that into you(:
not bad for a chick flick. and the ending was pretty touching. cried a little when the guy proposed.
and I'm super super annoyed cause I injured my toe WHILE KICKING MY SISTER. WTH. her leg isn't even pain anymore and my toe is like wtshit. I totally can't bend it so I cannot freaking walk properly. damn pissed ahhhhh.
I just hope I didn't break anything and it'll be fine tmr.
damn, I really want to say something to somebody.
like, why do you even bother to talk to me, when you don't even want to? like wtshit. seriously. I'm damn mad. I've been mad for more than a year and I wish you would just disappear from my life, seriously. that's why I've been avoiding you. so stop giving me this shit.
grahhhh, now that's off my chest, I feel a lot better. shall go to sleep soon, since I feel all relieved now.
Friday, April 1, 2011
AND UH, HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!:D
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAVE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNN!(:
the sorcerer's apprentice is nice:D cliche storyline and all but nice effects and action. but the humour was disappointing. I thought there would be more :/
thinking of watching the last airbender next. just for the fun of it.
and I need to rmb to watch I am number four. totally wanted to watch it in the cinemas but I missed it by a few days ): there were places airing it but too far away sigh. but oh wells, at least I have a reliable site to watch my movies.
watching movies is so fun.
of course, that only applies if you choose the right movies. more towards the genres I prefer(:
omg so sleepy now. and it doesn't help that my eyelid's swollen. pain pain go away, please ):
okay I'm falling asleep. this is a weird time to blog too LOL.